| Thursday, April 9, 2009
Getting on my nerves I can't keep up. Do you know how that feels?! Like half of you wants things just to be normal again so badly, and the other half just want to escape and start on a fresh, new page. To be in a place you can be anyone you want to. Looks like I won't be turning into an optimist anytime soon :| [Don't try to understand] [And you wouldn't know who is who, seriously; so don't bother!] Everybody has a problem with everybody, right? I have a problem with him And her Not to mention, them THEM. Oh god, them Does she know how much I miss her? Did he know I missed him? Does she realize all the things I wish I could say to her... could make tears fall down my cheeks. Does he realize that everyday I make a speech on what to say to him if I ever see him one of these days? I just, at one moment, seem so attached with certain people and for a space to be created in between us is something I'm never going to get used too. Resulted by my own naive self -- might I add. Do you know how THAT feels like? Like seeing such a familiar face almost everyday, on a daily basis; like knowing a personality inside-out, knowing their darkest secrets; biggest dreams; and suddenly wake up to realize you don't even know the right words to say to them anymore... ): I am just so tired and it seems like I'm buried under a ton of fucked up shit that keeps on coming. To apply that perky personality in my daily life, and painting that smile on my face, that zany laugh... ain't that easy nowadays, I tell you. Caught up in life and constantly feeling a twinge of envy. Not to mention the high pitched singing, the zany and the tenacious part of me is slowly fading away. I guess I'm gonna keep on passing through my days, barefaced and blatant, perhaps. Good day. p/s: did you know how much i miss you dear? didn't you know that? 10:37 PM
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Hello Im Vyrawr! I'm one of those pessimistic optimists or maybe vice versa. Zaniness and melancholy have dominated my life in many ways. I can say that I'm pretty content but on certain occasions a dark cloud will form above my head. I sleep late,I eat in bed and I like colourful objects.Arts have always been a part of me for as long as I can remember. I'm open minded,spontaneous and I procrastinate. I go ballistic when I see anything old-fashion or just passing by a camera store. you@hotmail.com bold italics underline Goals Exits link Talk Tagboard here. Archives February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 Credits Designer Blogskins |